Falling into Comfort

I had this realization today, it’s not new – and it’s possible I may have written about it before but .. I have this habit of identifying an issue, and then working to correct it. Then, once I do, I stop doing the very actions that helped me – because everything feels fine… until it doesn’t.

For example, maybe it’s meditating. I will do that if I start to realize I am in my head a bit more or stressed, and I start that practice again. Then once I feel happy and healed I disregard the meditation and slowly I end up back where I started. Why do I do this?

This came up recently for me as I am experiencing some neck tightness, similar to how I felt post surgery 2 years ago. My doctor asked if I have been stressed and it seems I’m clenching my jaw a lot and I realized, I have totally let me nightly winddown routine go! Of course that isn’t the cause of my stress, I am sure being jobless is contributing but I’ve let go of the anchor that was helping me through it.

So tonight, I’m going to do one small thing to reconnect with what grounds me – maybe a stretch, maybe a guided meditation, or maybe just silence before bed. I don’t need to overhaul everything, but I do want to remember that these habits aren’t just tools to fix something; they’re part of how I care for myself, always.

I want to catch myself when I start falling into comfort, so I can hold on to the things that keep me steady, not just when things are hard, but always.

Thanks for tuning in xo ciao!